It was love at first sight. His attractiveness shines through the brilliant colors of
his appearance and his body lean and compact. I couldn’t take my eyes off of him. As if I were 17 again, falling in love
for the first time, I found ways to get closer to him at every
opportunity. Every encounter left
me smiling and every glance and every touch made my heart soar. I didn’t wonder why people smile when
they saw us – the constant goofy grin on my face was sure to entice the same
response. I was hopelessly in
love.
Taking him places were truly joyful experiences. He takes such small amount of energy to
move around yet he gets us everywhere without delay. He may be slight and small in appearance; his heart is roomy
enough for me and my purses and the gym bag and the groceries. How about the kids? Someone asked. What about the kids? Who’ve heard of
the children involve in their parents’ love affairs? Of course I am NOT taking
the children on those outings with him.
HELLO!?!
Unlike other people in love affairs, I didn’t care that Mr.
D would find out. He certainly
noticed my young lover when I brought him home. Mr. D cautioned and pointed out all the flaws and
dangerousness of being in this affair.
Even though he admitted that my new love was charming and delightful; the
negative qualities of the object of my affection made it difficult for Mr. D to
consent to my new relationship. As generous as Mr. D his patience is not limitless. He wouldn’t give his blessing to allow
my new toy, uh, I meant, new boy, to be part of our family.
I wasn’t really torn- just miffed - for I have been a
willful adult and a spoiled wife. Waking
up early one morning, I roused Mr. D from a sound sleep. “Hey, I have something to ask you. Wake
up for a second.” (I really just
wanted him to be awake for one second.)
“Huh?” he said with a deep sigh.
“I want Puddles (yes, his name is Puddles. Do you have a problem with that?) and I know how we can make
it happen.” I said quietly and guiltily.
“Ok, …unintelligible mumbling…” Mr. D said something that I couldn’t
quite make out but I did hear this clearly “…if you want it just get it…” It is
not a whole sentence but his answer was clear. The fact that he was not really
conscious is not a concern of mine as long as I have the affirmative of his
response.
With Mr. D’s sanction (well, sorta.) I went out with Puddles
and started our day together. The
reality of having Puddles as a partner gradually set in like a brick sinking
in the river and I am feeling anxious.
The sky was a brilliant shade of blue and the sunshine bright and
beautiful. It was a lovely early
summer day and I kept thinking about my one and only love affair. I started setting up two huge columns
in my head: one said “pro” and one said “con” and was getting rather depressed
to see the list on the column for “con” is getting longer and longer. Well, Puddles is a little bit difficult to steer and he is
rather lazy when we need to speed up.
And it is true that he is rather thin skinned and probably can’t handle
any pressure from the outside world.
Why couldn’t the depth of my love overcome his shallowness? Arrgh!
Then something happened, something so typical and ordinary:
I picked up Mer who was away from me for a check-up appointment (that’s how I
got to keep Puddles for three days) and I took her home. When I sat with Mer, I actually let out
a sigh so deeply and contentedly – it is such comfort and convenient to be
surrounded by Mer’s beauty and security.
Mer moves gracefully on the way home and I was glad that the practical
part of my personality emerged and I parted with Puddles.
Maybe, Puddles, maybe someday I will have a chance to sing you the love song by Art Garfunkel “ I believe...”
Maybe, Puddles, maybe someday I will have a chance to sing you the love song by Art Garfunkel “ I believe...”

